Hey Revolutionists,
I just watched one of my favorite shows on ABC: Modern Family and there was a scene where the father was hugging the daughter after she had broken up with her first real boyfriend and he told her that everything was going to be OK. That triggered something inside me just now because I realized that has never happened to me.
So many times i wished i could call my father after i had a heart break or just needed his strong arms to embrace me and tell me everything was going to be OK. so many times i just wished that he could love me and take care of me the way a father should. so many times i just wished i could be able to say that i have a father and that i loved him more than anything.
When I was younger he promised me a lot of things, he promised to love me and take care of me. But he broke those promises and left me from that point on broken. I just wish he could hug me right now and tell me everything is going to be OK and that he could protect me and want to be here for me.
So what is a girl to do when those big loving arms are now memories of something that never existed. Whose chest can i cry into now that i have had my heart broken again. I just wish that he had kept is promise because now my teardrops just fall.
I miss who he never was.
So on this day i continue on my journey, i continue on this path to discover the deep rooted issues that i have so that one day i can overcome them and finally move on to become happy.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Where have all the positive role models gone?
Hey Revolutionists!
I am trying to remain consistent with my contact. Now my topic today is something I have been struggling with for quite some time now. It is like our generation doesn't have many positive role models to look up to.
I go to the Internet and I see the Kat stacks, and the amber roses and all these other video vixens and then I see young girls striving to be like them. They believe that to be rich and successful all you have to do is take to the stripper poles and pose naked and a baller will come running your way.
Well the Kat stacks and amber roses of our generation don't display all the negative consequences that comes along with using your body to get to the top! They do not tell you what it does to your self image, that you will never be able to get a lasting good man or the most dangerous part that being so promiscuous can lead to contracting STDs.
I think that its time for someone to step up and let the young women of the future know that education and hard work are the fore runners of becoming truly successful. There is nothing like waking up one day and knowing that everything you accomplished was because of you and you alone.
Its time to get our generation back so I want you guys to continue on this journey with me to self discovery and the road to ultimate happiness and success.
I am trying to remain consistent with my contact. Now my topic today is something I have been struggling with for quite some time now. It is like our generation doesn't have many positive role models to look up to.
I go to the Internet and I see the Kat stacks, and the amber roses and all these other video vixens and then I see young girls striving to be like them. They believe that to be rich and successful all you have to do is take to the stripper poles and pose naked and a baller will come running your way.
Well the Kat stacks and amber roses of our generation don't display all the negative consequences that comes along with using your body to get to the top! They do not tell you what it does to your self image, that you will never be able to get a lasting good man or the most dangerous part that being so promiscuous can lead to contracting STDs.
I think that its time for someone to step up and let the young women of the future know that education and hard work are the fore runners of becoming truly successful. There is nothing like waking up one day and knowing that everything you accomplished was because of you and you alone.
Its time to get our generation back so I want you guys to continue on this journey with me to self discovery and the road to ultimate happiness and success.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Living in a perfect storm
Hey Revolutionist!
I feel a million and one emotions running through me at this moment because of what I just read. I really should check up on my blog more often. It is like no matter how hard I try to over come these obstacles there are always self loathing people waiting at a moments notice to try and bring you down.
I created this blog because I feel most free when I am writing. It is a way that I can truly express myself and it is a way that I can in turn help other women who may be going through similar situations and let them know that they are not alone. While I have gotten a lot of positive feedback on this blog and through facebook and text messages there has been some negativity. People writing anonymously just baffles me. This is my place of Zen this is me and I said before even if they hate me I'm real.
When I write it is not with the intention of trashing anyone or bringing them down because if that was the case I would use names. It is not about him or her or anyone else, this is about me, my journey to self discovery...why are people turning this into some Jerry springer bashing site? i don't get it.
Now that is over with it is the last time i will be addressing the situation. Not everyone in this world is going to agree with what you say and accept you for who you are.
Now revolutionists individuality is key, don't be sucked into the drama or allow yourself to bring someone down because of your own issues or because of your own insecurities. The title ties into everything that that I just wrote and everything that is going on.
A perfect storm can be described as a combination of events which are not individually dangerous, but occurring together produce a disastrous outcome.
I want young women out there who may be faced with bullying to know that as long as you have your faith nothing else matters. There may be a lot of things going wrong at one time but you should always know there is a way out and know that there is always sunshine after the storm. I have two BIBLE verses that I want you guys to read and just know that when darkness falls, light comes shortly after.
Romans 12:17-19
Never pay back evil for evil to anyone. Respect what is right in the sight of all men. If possible, so far as it depends on you, be at peace with all men. Never take your own revenge, beloved, but leave room for the wrath of God, for it is written, "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay," says the Lord.
Matthew 5:44-46 -
"But I say to you, love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you in order that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven; for He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. "For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax-gatherers do the same?
So lets continue on this journey to self discovery and lets love and pray for our enemies along the way because they will be our biggest test of faith. I love you guys and I appreciate everyone who reads and show me love.
I feel a million and one emotions running through me at this moment because of what I just read. I really should check up on my blog more often. It is like no matter how hard I try to over come these obstacles there are always self loathing people waiting at a moments notice to try and bring you down.
I created this blog because I feel most free when I am writing. It is a way that I can truly express myself and it is a way that I can in turn help other women who may be going through similar situations and let them know that they are not alone. While I have gotten a lot of positive feedback on this blog and through facebook and text messages there has been some negativity. People writing anonymously just baffles me. This is my place of Zen this is me and I said before even if they hate me I'm real.
When I write it is not with the intention of trashing anyone or bringing them down because if that was the case I would use names. It is not about him or her or anyone else, this is about me, my journey to self discovery...why are people turning this into some Jerry springer bashing site? i don't get it.
Now that is over with it is the last time i will be addressing the situation. Not everyone in this world is going to agree with what you say and accept you for who you are.
Now revolutionists individuality is key, don't be sucked into the drama or allow yourself to bring someone down because of your own issues or because of your own insecurities. The title ties into everything that that I just wrote and everything that is going on.
A perfect storm can be described as a combination of events which are not individually dangerous, but occurring together produce a disastrous outcome.
I want young women out there who may be faced with bullying to know that as long as you have your faith nothing else matters. There may be a lot of things going wrong at one time but you should always know there is a way out and know that there is always sunshine after the storm. I have two BIBLE verses that I want you guys to read and just know that when darkness falls, light comes shortly after.
Romans 12:17-19
Never pay back evil for evil to anyone. Respect what is right in the sight of all men. If possible, so far as it depends on you, be at peace with all men. Never take your own revenge, beloved, but leave room for the wrath of God, for it is written, "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay," says the Lord.
Matthew 5:44-46 -
"But I say to you, love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you in order that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven; for He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. "For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax-gatherers do the same?
So lets continue on this journey to self discovery and lets love and pray for our enemies along the way because they will be our biggest test of faith. I love you guys and I appreciate everyone who reads and show me love.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Trigger Words
Hey Revolutionists,
Topic for the day is trigger words, do you have one, do you even know what it means. Well what I am talking about is that one word that brings you back to reality when you find yourself doing the same things that you know is bad for you.
Well I have been reading books, I have been observing my male friends and one thing that I notice is, what comes first for them and what follows. That is their career, status and money. Think about it, do you have athlete friends, or club promoter friends or entertainers or educators as friends? What is the one thing you notice them always talking about, making it right?
DO YOU EVER HEAR THEM STRESSING ABOUT GIRLS, NOT BEING ABLE TO PRACTICE BECAUSE OF A GIRL OR NOT BEING ABLE TO DO THEIR SCHOOL WORK OVER A GIRL..NO RIGHT?
So as strong beautiful women why do we limit ourselves to doing that, why is is that we would drop everything move cross country and let our faith be determined by a man.
Its time to stop all this you need to find a trigger word, mine is priorities! Whenever I am getting stressed out over him not calling back and I am thinking too much about it, I say priorities to myself and right now i know deep inside what that word means to me.
I am not going to be one of those 30something women talking about I'm all about my career and money but just how easy it is for a man to say get the career and money and the women will come..I feel I can do the same thing.
Its not even saying completely forget about men and say they aren't shit but just really put everything into perspective, know what you need to do to become successful, create that trigger word and get to it.
I am telling you at the end of the day that man is going to move where he needs to move, do whatever it takes for him to make it and he is not going to let a woman get in the way.
"If i have to lie to her and tell her i love her so that she can help with my school work and help me graduate, I am going to do it as long as it takes."
Read that sentence and know that some men will do whatever they have to to make it...
find your trigger word, define what it means to you and the next time you see yourself straying from your destined path, USE IT, SAY IT TO YOURSELF, SAY IT OUT LOUD, WRITE IT DOWN BUT USE IT!
join me on this journey to self discovery, healing one broken heart at a time.
Romans 8:28
Topic for the day is trigger words, do you have one, do you even know what it means. Well what I am talking about is that one word that brings you back to reality when you find yourself doing the same things that you know is bad for you.
Well I have been reading books, I have been observing my male friends and one thing that I notice is, what comes first for them and what follows. That is their career, status and money. Think about it, do you have athlete friends, or club promoter friends or entertainers or educators as friends? What is the one thing you notice them always talking about, making it right?
DO YOU EVER HEAR THEM STRESSING ABOUT GIRLS, NOT BEING ABLE TO PRACTICE BECAUSE OF A GIRL OR NOT BEING ABLE TO DO THEIR SCHOOL WORK OVER A GIRL..NO RIGHT?
So as strong beautiful women why do we limit ourselves to doing that, why is is that we would drop everything move cross country and let our faith be determined by a man.
Its time to stop all this you need to find a trigger word, mine is priorities! Whenever I am getting stressed out over him not calling back and I am thinking too much about it, I say priorities to myself and right now i know deep inside what that word means to me.
I am not going to be one of those 30something women talking about I'm all about my career and money but just how easy it is for a man to say get the career and money and the women will come..I feel I can do the same thing.
Its not even saying completely forget about men and say they aren't shit but just really put everything into perspective, know what you need to do to become successful, create that trigger word and get to it.
I am telling you at the end of the day that man is going to move where he needs to move, do whatever it takes for him to make it and he is not going to let a woman get in the way.
"If i have to lie to her and tell her i love her so that she can help with my school work and help me graduate, I am going to do it as long as it takes."
Read that sentence and know that some men will do whatever they have to to make it...
find your trigger word, define what it means to you and the next time you see yourself straying from your destined path, USE IT, SAY IT TO YOURSELF, SAY IT OUT LOUD, WRITE IT DOWN BUT USE IT!
join me on this journey to self discovery, healing one broken heart at a time.
Romans 8:28
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