Can't do it alone

Hey Revolutionists,
Everyday I am faced with challenges and for so long I have been in a dark place and recently I visited a place I wouldn't wish on my worse enemy. This post is something that is extremely hard to write but necessary. I see the self worth and respect of the women of our generation deteriorating at a very fast pace.

You know what is so crazy, the minute you start to speak out on your own, you are quickly labeled as some bitter female and marked with the infamous "that's why you are single". Is this true? Have men become the ruler of everything we use to believe in?

Love isn't the same anymore, it is not the same love that use to be shared 50years ago. Something happened and something that puts a fear in me so great that I don't ever think I can allow myself to completely fall in love with someone again.

We give men too much power, if we decide to talk to a man who has a girl, or wife or significant other, when only one party leaves do you think that it will effect him at all? No! because he still and will always have a plan B.

That is where we go wrong as women, we allow them to constantly have plan Bs and Cs and all the way to Zs. He is not going to be phased because we go about it wrong, we get mad at the other woman and we make it into a competition. We think well I am going to keep holding on because one day he is going to realize i been holding him down this long and he is going to come around. Then we also think I am going to stick around and eventually the other woman will grow tired and leave and then you wake up 2-3 years later and she is still there and you have already invested too much time, money, love and energy into something built on nothing.

Why keep gambling your faith, happiness, self worth and everything a woman stands for because we think we cant live without a man? I know love is powerful and that fear that you wont be able to move on consumes you but you need to know you deserve better. I realized it a little too late and I have lost way more than I invested!

You have to make decision to which pain you are going to take because trust me there is going to be pain no matter what, I call it my double edge sword. You have to decide if you are going to leave now and take the pain that comes with moving on from something so damaging or the pain of staying and knowing that you are not getting treat right and knowing the longer you stay the worse it is going to be.

You also have to realize that what is written by God cannot be stopped or changed by man, it can be deterred but never destroyed. I have been called pathetic, desperate, every derogatory word than can be thought of. I have been told to kill myself, I have had girls try to ruin my scholarship, anything you can think of it has happened to me. But through it all the most important thing I have realized to be true to myself and always keep my faith in God. Because if these things happened to me because I was guilty of loving a man, there is nothing I would change about my decisions I had made to stay initially. But I have realized that in order for me to live a more positive lifestyle, I need to get rid of the negative factors.

So continue to walk with me on this journey to self discovery and always remember when the praising go up the blessings come down. I love everyone who supports me because I CANNOT DO IT ALONE!