Hey Revolutionist,
Its almost 4 in the morning and I cant sleep. If you knew me you would know that's nothing new for me. Once again if you knew me you would know that my life is complicated. I feel like the minute I am happy, here comes a million and 1 things trying to knock it down. The one thing that is different this time though is that I am the one who is in complete control of my happiness. Before this I use to let what other people do, say and how they treat me effect my happiness, well not anymore.
There is no worse feeling though than being constantly accused and being stigmatized because someone wants to form negative opinions about you. The one thing I can pride myself in saying is that I am open a book. I have flaws, I admit them all the time, I am not perfect and I don't try to be. But the one thing I wont ever stand again as long as I live is giving a man the power to degrade me and determine my worth. I am tired of taking on the defeatist attitude when someone hurts me or does something wrong. I am tired of giving men complete and utter control to have a reign of terror over my head.
All my years of living I have learned that whenever someone has made up their mind about you without a primary source (you), do not give that person a second out of your day to plead your case. Ignorance is bliss, let them shine in it.
A girl gets tired of the false rumors and fabricated stories but people must be talking for a reason. At the end of the day no matter how long it takes, the truth always comes out. My faith cannot be deterred, I know that I am still her for a purpose. I believed in strength, I got strong and not God is using me to help others...nothing great comes easy...
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose ROMANS 8:28
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