Hey Revolutionists,
This topic has to be one of the hardest things I have ever had to write on. To admit that I had once been weak and fallen into something so embarrasing and something that cost me so much is hard to admit. But I think that the only way truly get past something is to admit it and express how you feel about it.
How many times have you read a story or watched a movie or even witnessed a friend in a situation where they have been with someone who is with someone else.
One particular article comes to mind, this woman was with a man who had a wife, and she was with him for 10years. He kept promising that he would leave his wife and that he loved her so much, but 10 years. What do you think is the chance that he would leave his wife after all those years??? Think about it! I know people out there are probably going, she is stupid and she should have known better, but let me enlighten you from an inside perspective.
When you are with someone and maybe you dont know about the other person or maybe you do, but the point it when you have the type of feelings for a person that you would go to the end of the earth for, there is no way that you can just turn it off and on like a light switch.
I was with someone for 2 years and they sold me everything to make me believe that what we has was more real than anything I had ever experienced. He dogged the other girl out made it seem as if he was completely using her and that i was more to him than anything. See the only problem was, he had successfully found a way to manipulate everything down to my breath. I was a puppet and i let him control my worth. It got so bad that my mood would be according to the way he treated me.
I am not the person now that I was with him but the reason I wanted to share this story and its so hard typing the words, because I lost a lot being with him.
I want women to read this and know that it is not under any circumstances ok to share a man, if I could have just up and left trust and believe me i would have, its scary losing someone you love and have invested so much time and emotions into. The point is when I was with him I was in a dark place, my grades went down, I did horrible in track, it was like I was breathing in and out but I wasnt living, I guess you can say I was on autopilot. I lost a lot of friends and potential friends staying in the situation. Men and women looked at me different, it was unnecessary drama and it messed up any chances I might have had with other men because of this stigma that was placed over my head.
Well the point is and I can say this now, dont be afraid to hurt and be in pain, there are going to be a lot of hard days when the only thing you can do is sit there and cry. The worse thing to do is think about what could have been. But let me give you a little advice, if that man loves you, truly loves you he would NEVER make you an option. He would never make you feel less than you are worth. He would never let the whole world be against you and not offer himself as a sheild.
The person I was with had the best of both worlds, he had one girl supplying him with an endless amount of superficial and material possessions and one that catered to his emotional and physical needs.
Point black I am ok with being the sacrificial lamb, I want to be your sheild and guide you, these men that are in the middle are never going to choose, look at it from this way, try to find the end result, do you honestly think that in the end you are going to end up with him?
Women are beautiful and unique creatures, know your worth and never judge someone until you have taken a step in their shoes.
I love you guys lets continue on this journey to self discovery, let go and be free.
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