Underneath it All

Hey Revolutionists,
Have you ever heard of that song, "underneath it all". For some reason that was stuck in my head. Do people really love you and want to be with you underneath it all, all of the superficial and physical attributes that you present to them. Well the point of this post is that people today are really too caught up on everything that's on the outside.

Brief review: When I was real young I didn't know what it meant to have long hair and skin a certain color or eyes a certain color. I didn't know that when it would come time to finding friends and boyfriends that all that would play a factor in being chosen. But then I grew up and not only did I realize it but I experienced how it felt to not really have any of those attributes. I am not a stranger to being teased and cyber bullying has come to know me real well. I was with a boy back home for two years in high school and I guess you can say that the girls didn't think I was "right" for him. So I was subjected to anonymous websites, my character and my worth was brought down for all the island to see because certain people didn't think I had the "right" look to be with him. I remember this one time in high school, I had a breakout really bad and my school was having a huge celebration because we had won just about every sport on the Island. All the local media was there, it was packed. These group of girls decided that they hated me so much they had set up for a group of boys to shout about my face when I went up to get my award. Now the boys didn't do it but I am telling you this show how far people went to hurt me because they decided that they didn't like me. I experienced it all, I had girls hate me because I ran track or because I was in the top academic stream at school. It was like I was being punished for everything I was and everything people thought I wasn't.

Lets Fwd it to college, I woke up one day to the same high school BS; the anonymous website once again. I honest to God felt like it was happening all over again. They trashed my name, my character, everything about me because I was involved with a boy they said I had no reason being with. They went as far as telling me to kill myself, it really got that bad. The difference between high school and college was that I knew who I was inside and out.
I didn't need anyone to define my worth or tell me that I was ugly or tell me that I wasn't good enough for someone. Its like you can try and try to move on and put yourself in different situations, different locations but evil is everywhere. There is always going to be someone out there that is armed and ready to bring you down. You know the crazy part? in everything that was said, the people were always anonymous on those websites. The biggest cowards wear the biggest masks.

The point of this blog is to show that I have nothing to hide. All my life people have tried to bring me down but I kept up a resistance because a quitter doesn't live here. People who have met me in the late stages of my life don't know me. So they too judge me saying I have a bad attitude or that I am a bitch or that I am conceited. But if they were to read my blog I just want to tell them I am none of those things, i am just someone who made it. I tell people all the time, never judge me until you have taken a single step in my shoes.

Cyber bullying and bullying on the whole has become one of the biggest problems being faced in the world right now. If there are young women out there reading this I just want you to know that you are not alone. I just read about a teen that killed herself because she was being bullied and I don't think it should come to that. On that website over a year ago they told me to kill myself, But I'm still here, I am here making it happen.

WE cant control evil, it exists and through all my insecurities and different issues I still look in the mirror everyday and I love what I see. Underneath it all I am this shining light that never goes dim because i believed in myself and I believe that I am here to serve a greater purpose.

To all the women out there please know that this is you and you should never let anyone tell you what your worth is and how you should look. No one was appointed the position of judge, there is only one person, the Almighty who has that rightful position. Never let anyone tell you that you are not right for someone or that you don't deserve to be with them, because that person chose you, they want to be with you, So hold your head high and be happy.

So join me on this journey to self-discovery. I love you guys!
Please listen to christina aguilera's song "beautiful" after this, that song is beyond powerful.