Through Thick & Thin

Hey revolutionists,
I believe that you should have friends that will stick with you through thick and thin. These past few months have really made me realize who are the most important people in my life. If you were to get into a problematic situation, is there one person who you know that you could call on no matter what?

Flashback:
In high school I would alwayyyyssss have girls that would just dislike me for no reason. But if you have been reading my previous posts you would know why I would have a hard time with letting people in. I would always have girls who would say they dont like me because of my attitude, or they dont like me because I think im the shit, it was crazy the things they would say. I am just the type of person that would do anything not to fit in. You can never put me in a box, and I love being that way. The problem is, a lot of people dont understand that and instead of getting to know me they automatically judge me because I think its just easier for people to be that way. But thats ok because then I know that the people who actually try to get to know me genuinely want to be my friend. Even if it is one person, I am completely happy with that.

When I got to college it got worse. I lost a lot of friends and potential friends because of "the situation" ( I think everyone by now knows what the situation is). If this is the first time reading my blog, the sitaution is something I was caught up in for just about two years with a man that I loved involving another female.I think because I didnt have that outgoing personality, a lot of people chose sides before they even knew the complete story. Their was his side, her side and my side and everyone just chose to to be against me. Even my own friends would judge me and look and me different. It was hard feeling like the whole world was against me. But I had some true friends that stuck by me through it all. Even though they didnt approve they let me make my own decision and mistakes and they didnt shun me because of it. So many times the girls who I would hang with I would hear things about them and see things they would do but I never once stop being cool with them because of it.

It got so bad where my male friends would come to me and tell me their girls would say i was mean mugging them around campus, when I didnt even know who their girls were. It got really bad after the anonymous website situation, people just looked at me different. i would have friends who wouldnt even want to chill because they felt that they would be targeted next for being with me. I felt like the whole world was against me and when I needed my friends most they showed me who was really going to be there through thick and thin.

I cherish all my friendships but i am not going to go out of my way to prove myself to people. i feel that if a person is truly your friend when you feel like the world is against you, they will be right there to fight beside you. A lot of people forsaked me because they associated me with drama, or being a hoe or just being a negative person. I feel that friendship is when a person knows all about you and they still like you and want to be around you. I tell people all the time never judge me until you have taken a step in my shoes. Thats what I am trying to do, I am trying to give everyone out there a tour of my closet because I have nothing to hide. But at the end of the day if you decide you do not like me, let it be for the right reasons. Dislike me based off of your own analysis. Not because you heard a rumor or you want to be cool with a certain person, but then I guess thats why there and leaders and followers, its just the way the world is.

Never be a hermit crab, or shape shifter, never change who you are based on the people you around. I have a few extraordinary people in my life and they are honestly the reason I am alive to this day. So many times I wanted to give up when I was in such a dark place but they came with the blazing light, took me by the hand and lead me the right way.

Please join me on this journey to self discovery, I know I still have a lot to learn but I am ready and willing to try. A frend once told me " A friend to many is a friend to none". Just because there are a million people around you that doesnt mean that a million people will fight for you.